You, Me, Us.

man of my dreams. — na jaemin

Life could be a crazy, chaotic, confusing but I have you and I have us, so it calms and comforts me, in a sense that only you and me, understand.

To the boy who always remind me to not skip a meal, thank you for being the reason that I now eat 3 meals a day, with no guilty feelings inside, as I struggled a lot with eating before, due to some personal reason. You remind me that it’s okay to eat if it’s what good for my body and for my well-being.

To the cat lover who have so many itzavibe’s cat hoodies, sweatshirts and caps collection, thank you for teaching me a lot of random facts about the cute fluffy creatures called cats and dogs. I told all the things I learned from you to my family now, so they are more aware about them when they want to adopt them as their new pets.

To the guy who encouraged us to protect ourselves in case of emergency and danger, thanks to you, I set my emergency contacts to the people I trust the most, because you said if I don’t have someone with me when I go out, I should at least have someone who’s willing to come immediately whenever I’m in trouble. I do research on criminal cases in my place, so I could be aware of my surroundings when I’m out, because you told me too.

To the one who always remind us to stay healthy, thanks to you, I check the weather app on my phone everytime I go out, so I know if it will rain later, so I don’t get rain on me and become sick. I take vitamins and medicines for my health. I start eating healthy food.

To the one who cares so much about his skin, I’m thankful for you, now I followed your skincare steps when it comes to taking care of my skin. I apply lipbalm to moisturise my lips, and moisturiser along with sunscreen so my skin will always be healthy, especially the neck, because you told us, it’s the part of skin that get wrinkles very easily as we get old. I buy suitable facemasks, apply the right lotion, all because you remind me to.

To the one who did so much to give us so many lessons, all I can say that, because of you, I now have a reason to find that despite life is hard, whenever I prioritize myself, I can endure everything. You teached me in 101 ways that the key to be happy begins with taking care of me, so eventually happiness will find its way to me.

Na Jaemin,

a hundred thank you, I speak or write to you will never be enough to express how grateful I am to have you alive in the same timeline that I lived in.

The impact you have on me is bigger than most of the people I know in real life. Who would’ve thought the first person who told me that I am precious is an idol who lives far away from me? Who would’ve thought the one who will always tell me that I worked hard, even if it just simply for me to live through a day, is a man in a K-Pop boy group?

Ah, it sounds silly but honestly saying, this parasocial relationship I have with you is what keeps me alive. You make me happy the same way you told us that we make you happy. We cheer for you as much as you cheer for us. In a way, we care for each other. People don’t have to understand how, it’s between you and me, because we only have us.

From the bottom of my heart,

Jaemin,

Your existence means a lot to me. I could write thousands of words dedicated to you, but it will never be enough to justify how grateful I am a man like you exist. You will forever be the man of my dreams. You are a grip I hold tightly so I don’t fall in this journey called life.

Since there are no words prettier than these 3 words altogether according to you, I will always say it to you,

I love you.

May life be good to you, to me, to us.

written simply and shortly by a soul you have encouraged and motivated a thousand times.

written by C,

12082023.